When I was in 12th, there was this girl in 11th in my college. I still remember the first time I saw her on the college ground. I don’t know why but something about her just stayed in my mind. After some time I started seeing her daily on our college bus. Later I found out her house was only like 10 minutes away from mine, and my cousin was also in the same class as her. I used to ask him small things about her sometimes. The problem is I never had the courage to talk to her. I’ve always been kind of insecure about myself and I’ve never really talked to girls before or been in a relationship. So for more than a year I just kept my feelings to myself and watched her from a distance like an idiot 😭 At first I thought it was just attraction and it would go away after some weeks or months. But even after 1 year I still felt the same about her. After finishing my 12th boards, I finally gathered the courage to message her and tell her everything. Honestly I was expecting the worst, but she was really nice about it. She told me she doesn’t want to be in a relationship right now, and I respected that because I never wanted to force her into anything. But she also said she would still talk to me, and honestly that alone made me really happy. For the first time in more than a year I felt relaxed because I finally told her all the things I had been hiding inside for so long. I don’t know what will happen in the future. Maybe nothing. Maybe something. But talking to her genuinely makes me happy and peaceful in a way I can’t explain. A part of me still hopes that maybe one day we’ll end up together.