So I had this one crush in my high school and I didn’t really talk to her much back then. But after graduating I texted her and we started talking. We talked for almost 6 or 7 months straight, not daily but very very often. In fact I don’t have anyone with more chats than her, whatever I search in my messages I get like 50 or 60 matches just from our chat. Now it’s been almost 2 or 3 months since we haven’t talked properly. She always said I have really good vibes and that she respects and likes everything about me, but she just doesn’t want to date anyone right now. She said she is just in her phase for a while. I didn’t force much. But I can’t help getting a bit delusional lol. The pattern I noticed earlier was that she used to post a lot of insta notes whenever we didn’t text for a few days, but once I texted her again and we started talking, she wouldn’t post any notes during that time. I don’t even know if I am overthinking but that was the pattern. Recently she didn’t post much, at least I didn’t notice. But after almost a month I posted a note yesterday, and then she posted a song that actually felt like a hint. Not saying which song, but it had something to do with what happened between us. It basically described our whole situation. And on top of that she updated her profile picture in almost the same pose as mine. Before, when I asked her why she doesn’t text first and why I always have to be the one to start, she said she feels shy texting first. So now I am wondering if she is hinting me to text her again. I even feel like some of the reels she likes are about me when I see them on insta. I feel like thats a whole new level of delusion when i think about that. What the fuck, I feel cooked and completely confused.