as i burn, i see you right there laughing at my corpse. you yelling my name, loud and with sheer life, it just feels like my life moving from me to you. i question this burn each time. and this burns me even more. my chest and my belly feels it. the burn feels like a rage as it slowly turns pale. your laugh echoed every day and as i burn through it all i feel a little less of myself. i feel like i am diminishing each day. how hollow this heart has been, i asked god for answers but god remained shut this time. i will be gone and one last time this corpse don't wanna be anywhere. the slow burn feels like everything this body wants. as i ask god, why did you choose to make me go away. god hesitated but i still pleaded more and went on my knees to know why this is all. god never replied. and that silence was the answer. the meaning i have cunningly searched for, for years. the answer remains in my burning body. but the body is burning more and more each and every day. as i try to look within, i keep on vanishing. i can't contemplate with patience within me and i panicked. i panicked so hard that this chest exploded. this chest saw it all in so many directions. its fire, rain and whatsoever, its a disaster within, my whole, my lungs to my toes. everything just burns me. i feel the heat, i feel the raging emotion, i plead to go away. but it remains and it slowly eats me while she watches me laughing at every derail i go through. but the way out is within me. my patience keeps on losing and slowly, i end. i end with a sweet note within me which remains unanswered.